17. Behaviour Uncalled For

*Okay so I hit a brick wall with CM right now but I'm trying to get it together so I decided to post on here and WTWC today ^_^ Hope this is ok! And thx so much for the comments on chapter 16! The posts I'm doing today are quite small but that's only for today I'mma start posting again as usual and try get some longer chapters in :))*

It was getting late and everyone could see that Nicki was tired as she lay pathetically into Safaree's side. Her parents along with Safaree's were stopping in the spare rooms and everyone else was leaving. In the space of thirty minutes every person had cleared out of the house.

"You want somethin' to eat before you go to bed?" Safaree couldn't help but smile at how Carol would talk to Nicki as if she was still a child living at home.

"No thanks, I ate like a truckload for lunch." She rubbed her stomach before taking a seat at the table. Her friends were the only non-family members still there, everybody was in the lounge room down the hall and as soon as Mama Carol left the kitchen it was just Nicki and Lauren. She could tell she wanted to leave but spoke up before she could make a move. "You okay Lauren?"

"I'm fine, I just need an early night." She smiled and rubbed Nicki's hand. "I think I'm gonna head off but I'll-"

"No, don't go yet!" she felt her small hand grip on to hers as she tried to stand. "I need to talk to you."

"What is it?" The curiosity on her face wasn't genuine as she returned to her seat. Nicki knew that she knew what she was going to ask her.

"What's goin' on with you? And don't even think about lyin' 'cause you already spun enough of those. I'm not stupid Lauren, there's somethin' up with you." She looked like a deer caught in the headlights but that expression changed as Safaree walked in, placing his hands on Nicki's shoulders as she took no notice of him. He kissed her head and carried on over to fridge, Lauren's eyes followed him all the way and Nicki didn't fail to notice. Turning her own head she looked at him and then back to Lauren, her gaze still hadn't broken. "What are you starin' at?" Her demanding voice made her tear away her eyes and look back at Nicki's face.

"I'm really fine Nic, don't stress yourself out. It ain't good for-"

"No, don't turn this back on me. I asked you if you were okay, now could you please answer me truthfully?" Safaree could feel the tension in the room and grabbed his plate of scraps before leaving quickly.

"I'm just goin' through some stuff right now, but it's fine. I'm gettin' through it."

"You don't have to just "get through it" though, y'know you can talk to us? Why didn't you say somethin'?"

"I can't talk about this, 'specially not with you." Nicki's face contorted as she gave her a look.

"The hell is that s'posed to mean?"

"Look at you! You got everythin' anyone could ever want. You wouldn't understand."

"Wait, if you're talkin' 'bout bein' famous and-"

"I'm not." She took a breath and started playing with her nails as she avoided making eye contact with her friend. "I mean your life right now, you and Safaree are gettin' things together. You're abouta have twins. I'on know I just want what you have and sometimes it's like you can't even see how blessed you are." She finished her heartfelt explanation and left Nicki sat there speechless.

"Don't think I'm not grateful for what I have, 'cause I am. Really, Safaree's the best thing to have ever happened to me!" She smiled as she spoke but Lauren's face remained the same. "You'll have all of this soon, hopefully more planned and thought out than the way I'm experiencin' it."

"That's the thing though, I won't. I can't." The sudden crack in Lauren's voice made Nicki frown and grab her hand.

"Sure you will, you're-"

"Nicki, you don't get it. I ca-" She cut herself off and huffed. "I can't."

"You can't what?" This was becoming more and more confusing to Nicki's already frazzled mind, she didn't know whether it was because Lauren was actually being confusing or if she was just tired after a relatively big day.

"I can't have kids Nicki."

***

"Just like that? That's all she said?" Safaree was removing his watch as he sat on the edge of the bed with Nicki laying behind him.

"Yeah." Her answer was followed by a deep sigh causing Safaree to turn and look at her.

"She can't be mad at you 'cause you can have babies though, that's just messed up."

"She's not mad with me Safaree, she's just..." Her thoughts cut into her sentence as she became quiet again. "I feel so bad that she felt like she couldn't speak to us, y'know?" SB was listening as he ripped the cover up and climbed in next to her.

"Wait, when did she find out 'bout all of this?"

"After you left. And there I was sat tellin' her how a got pregnant by accident. And with twins too." She slapped her hand on to her face and groaned. Lauren hadn't told her the whole story but she was more than cut up about the whole thing, especially having to watch one of her best friends experience all of this and not be able to ever know what it's like herself.

They lay together and talked for ages. By the time they actually got to sleep Nicki had been in tears about Lauren and tired herself out even more, leaving Safaree with his own thoughts. There was no doubt about it. He felt so bad for Lauren, even more when he thought about how much he was always going on about the twins, he was mentally kicking himself but couldn't carry on like that. How was he supposed to know what was wrong with her? Feeling Nicki stir next to him he sat up and peered over at her face, her brow was furrowed deeply. She had done this two nights ago and as soon as he started rubbing her back she became still again and her face relaxed. Sleep wasn't far away from him as he continued rubbing at her skin and before he knew it he was fast asleep too.

As the weeks passed by Nicki and Safaree were well on their way back to normal and they were taking things slowly in terms of her leaving the house. She didn't for a while but then whenever  Safaree would head out to go get something she'd just ride with him in the car so she could leave the self-made prison. The word was out that she was pregnant and now everybody knew but she figured that would have to come out sooner or later. As for Drake he hadn't been heard from in a long while but he definitely wasn't forgotten. With his focus purely on the road Safaree kept the speed up as they headed across town to Rex's place, it was Candi's birthday and a couple of them they were going around to celebrate. They already decided before hand that they weren't staying too long, just a quick hello, happy birthday and goodbye.

"S'up with you?"

"Nothin'.

"Yeah, 'cause that's exactly what it seems like." He shook his head and carried on concentrating on the road whilst she just ignored his last comment and played mindlessly on her phone. Honestly she was already feeling uncomfortable with the thought of being around Lauren right now, she just wanted the night to be over so they could go home. Not to mention her new worry of going into labour at any moment. The rest of the short car journey was silent until they pulled up to a stop and he helped her out of the car. They just let themselves in and followed the noise of people people talking before they actually found them all in the back lounge room.

"Oh my God, is that Nicki? Actually outta the house?"

"Fuck you." Her dry response matched with a blank stare made Rex laugh as he walked over to them.

"Nah I'm just playin', they all through there." He gestured behind him and let her past before greeting Safaree.

The room went a little quiet as she walked in, mostly out of surprise that she'd even come out. The silence was temporary before Candi jumped up to see her. Embracing her in a hug she led her to the couch. Everything was going smoother than she thought after she'd wished her a happy birthday and gave her a gift, until TT started asking about baby names.

"How can you be ready to pop 'em out any time now and still not have come up with any names? That's the first thing I'd do!"

"I'on know, it's just somethin' we haven't really spoke about." She shrugged under their gaze and caught a glimpse of a very uncomfortable looking Lauren as she played with one of her bangles.

"You must have some ideas?" Now Candi was offering her input too, much to Nicki's annoyance. She wanted to keep the focus on the main reason they were here but it was all turning back on to her. She was glad the guys had all moved outside, the only reason being that they didn't want to smoke around her.

"I really don't though." She smiled before looking between their faces. "Anyway tonight isn't about me, it's your birthday."

"How kind of you to notice." The spiteful comment wasn't just noticed by Nicki as all three girls turned to look at Lauren's scathing face. TT was about to open her mouth but Thembi stopped her.

"How 'bout we get some birthday drinks goin' or somethin'? Orange juice for Nic of course. Come help me." Thembi nudged her before jumping up and moving through to the kitchen. There was silence once again as Nicki looked down at herself and Candi switched her eyes from her two friends.

"Okay, the hell is wrong with you two?" The anger was more than clear in her tone and facial expression as she spoke.

"What, you mean aside from her makin' everythin' about herself?"

"Lauren I'm tryin' to understand what you're goin' through, I really am! But you can't keep actin' like this with me, it ain't my fault!"

"What the hell are you two talkin' about?!"

"Look, I think I'm just gonna leave. I have an appointment early in the morning. Happy birthday Can." She stood up with a struggle and grabbed her purse. "Tell Safaree I'll be waitin' in the car." That was all she said before she left.

...

*Again, I'm sorry it's short but I did this one as well as CM and a sneak peek for WTWC today so I'll do some more tomorrow :)) Hope it was ok*

16. Diagnosis - Part Two

* I haven't updated this one in a while so here goes, the last chapter was really not good and I apologise! I'm trying to get it back on track though :) Hope this is ok!*

Safaree stood as soon as the Doctor entered, he had a bunch of files in his hand. Slipping them under his arm he shut the door behind himself. Nicki was still alseep, reminding them to keep their talking at a low volume.

"So what was it you needed to talk to me 'bout?" It was obvious how nervous he was feeling as he stared anxiously.

"Oh it's nothin' too serious but it is quite important."

"Is it the babies?"

"Please, sit down Mr Samuels and I'll explain everything." Safaree did as he was asked and resumed his seat by Nicki's bedside. The doctor did exactly as he said he would. Running through every aspect of what had happened to Nicki, reasons why it could have happened and everything Safaree could do in future to prevent it from happening again. SB caught himself feeling overwhelmed listening to all the signs and symptoms, some of them sounded terrifying. Then he moved on to another topic, her celebrity status. He discussed the fact that the added stress and pressure she was under from the public would probably have contributed greatly not to mention any traumatic experiences she's had. Safaree's mind swilled back to thoughts of Drake and everything he'd done to her. The guilt of leaving her would never leave him. Ever.

"Mr Samuels?" He looked up at the sound of his name.

"Sorry it's been a long day." Trailing his eyes back over Nicki's peaceful face he was glad he didn't have to see her go through any of that today. He would have preferred it if he was there for her but all the while he was just glad.

"I understand, I'll get the discharge papers sorted for you." He smiled kindly and turned to leave, stopping briskly in the door frame. "Oh and we'll try and minimise the amount of crowding outside when you leave."

"What?"

"Well, I assumed you knew that there was dozens of photographers outside." His brow furrowed confusedly as Safaree's face dropped. Now her secret was out.

"Aight, thanks." He nodded back at him and left.

Although the hospital security tried their up most to clear the hospital entry there was still people piled outside. Instinctively Safaree kept a firm hold on Nicki as they made their way out, he could feel her clutching on to him desperately as they tried to get into the truck. The driver didn't hesitate to get out and hold the door open for the pair of them, it took a while understandably since they were trying to pry themselves through all the people in the dark. Only temporary flashes of cameras illuminated the environment around them. He could hear some of them yelling to give them space to walk but they weren't listening. Finally reaching the vehicle he made sure to get her in first, she was still holding her jacket over her bump in attempt to conceal the view but she knew as well as him that they'd already got pictures. Climbing in next to her he slammed the door, not caring if anyones extremities were in his way.

"You good?" He watched over her as she sank back into the seat, nodding. This was ridiculous, he knew this was what they signed up for when she pursued this career but hounding her like that when she was pregnant and just suffered and anxiety attack? He didn't know how much longer he'd be able to stand this. What would happen when she had the twins?

"I know what you're thinkin'." His thoughts came to an immediate halt as he looked over at her. The car was moving now, thankfully leaving behind the incessant clicking and flashing of the paparazzi.

"You do?"

"Yeah, of course I do. It's written all over your face Safaree." She gave him a knowing smile before grabbing his hand. "Talk to me." He hesitated, wondering whether or not to tell her about the text from Drake. Ultimately deciding that she'd had enough to deal with for today he pushed the memory to the back of his mind.

"I was jus' thinkin' 'bout when you get further on with the pregnancy will they still be hasslin' you like that? Y'know? And what about when they're actually born they gonna be in talks 'bout who the Dad is and-"

"Safaree?"

"Yeah?"

"Shut up." She laughed as she said it and snuggled into his side as he smiled. "It'll be fine, and if they start askin' questions I'll just tell 'em who their Dad is."

"But you don't know who the Father is, could be Drake for all we know."

"Biologically he could be. But you're gonna be the one raisin' them. Feedin' them, changin' their diapers, teachin' them to walk and talk." She tilted her head up to look at him. "Either way, you're gonna be their real Father. No matter what."

"You mean that?"

"I wouldn't say it otherwise." She blinked lazily as he smiled down at her before relaxing back into the seat with her.

Before they knew it they were back at the house and obviously with it being close to 10pm they settled on having something quick to eat before going to sleep. Laying in bed his thoughts continued to spiral as she was resting comfortably into his side, her head resting on his outstretched arm.

"Safaree?" He jumped a little hearing her voice, he thought she was sleeping.

"Yeah?"

"Did you think Lauren was actin' weird today?" She kept facing the same direction until he turned his head to look at her.

"Didn't really notice, why?"

"Oh, I'on know, she just seemed really off. Like, almost mad but..." She trailed off in thought as she chewed gently on her lip. "I feel like I'm bein' so selfish."

"How are you bein' slefish? You've had a traumatic day. It ain't your fault."

"I know but even she said today-"

"She said you were actin' selfish?"

"No, lemme finish." She blinked slowly and began again after he shut his mouth. "She was talkin' sarcastically and told me she was sorry that they couldn't have their own problems to deal with."

"Oh and that made you feel selfish?"

"Yeah. Like, I've been too wrapped in my own shit that I haven't noticed that she's goin' through somethin'. You think she's okay?"

"Well you've had a lot to deal with Nic. Nobody is holdin' that against you. As for Lauren, I'm sure she's fine, she seemed okay with me but you could just give her a call tomorrow. Now, go to sleep 'cause I got a surprise for you in the mornin'." He kissed her one last time as they re-settled to go to sleep, but she still wasn't done.

"Wait, we're not-'

"No Nicki. We're not leavin' the house if you don't want to." He felt her relax again and snuggle back into him as he shook his head.

Amazingly they both got enough sleep that evening. Safaree thought he was going to be kept awake with her frequent waking during the night but she slept like a log the whole way through, in turn giving him a peaceful night's sleep too. Having already got up and performed his usual morning routine he was sat downstairs on the laptop. There was pictures all over the internet already, feeling himself becoming irked he slammed it shut.

"S'up with you?" She approached him from behind and ran her hands over his shoulders and down his chest as she got to be as close to him as her bump would let her.

"Nothin' that you should be worryin' 'bout." Clasping on to her hands he pulled her around on to the stool next to him. "I'm gon' make your food-"

"What about my surprise?"

"Well if you were patient enough I was just gettin' 'round to that, food first and then I'll get on to the surprise." He kissed her pouting face and moved over to the counter, making her food. Bringing his eyes up to stare at her he sighed seeing her scrolling down the endless articles on the laptop, he knew he should have moved it but she'd find out sooner or later.

"Do they really have nothin' better to do?" She let out a long sigh. "Whatever, I'm not gon' let it get to me. Not today." Slamming the piece of technology shut she slid it away from herself and sat her elbows on the table. "How long will the food be?"

"It's done." She spun around quickly hearing how close he was. Her excited face dropped as he placed a bowl of cut up fruit in front of her.

"Where's the actual food?"

"That's it. It's fruit, it's good for you." Throwing the tea towel over his shoulder he waited for her to eat it. "I'm not allowed what you had?"

"Nicki I had this too."

"How are you about to tell me that when your damn plate is still sat on the table?" He followed her eyes as they fell upon his plate which had previously been home to strips upon strips of turkey bacon along with the whole deal.

"Fine. Eat that, then I'll think about it." She rolled her eyes and started picking out the pieces she wanted to eat.

"So, what's my surprise?"

"Get your fruit, I'll show you." Holding his hand out for her she grabbed it with her free hand, her fruit bowl secured in the other. As they got closer to back of the house she could hear people talking, at first she thought it was on the TV but noticed it was turned off.

"Safaree-" She stopped dead when he opened the sliding door to the back yard, revealing the whole of both his and her families along with all their friends staring at them. "Oh my God! How did you-"

"That doesn't matter, they're here aren't they?" He kissed her before releasing her from his hold as she went to say hello to everyone. Honestly he'd been organising this for ages and was thankful that it all played out. Watching everyone stood around and sat at the tables he set out he smiled seeing Nicki with her Mom. He saw Lauren stood alone, she looked troubled to say the least. Making his way over to her she hadn't even noticed him slide up to her.

"Aye, s'goin on with you?" The question was asked out of genuine concern as he grabbed himself a steak off of the barbecue. Now he was glad that he'd set out paper plates, no cleaning up.

"I'on know what she's been tellin' you but I'm fine." She forced a weak smile and looked over at Nicki, she looked a lot calmer than yesterday. Truthfully that had really scared her and she was relieved to know she was okay for now.

"Nicki never said anythin'. It's obvious that there's somethin' botherin' you. What's up?" He was lying as he cut greedily into his steak, paying attention to her sadness at the same time.

"Please? Can we not do this here?" She looked down before throwing her empty paper plate into the trash bag next to them. "I'm just gon' go use your bathroom." Leaving before he had chance to speak another word he watched her disappear inside, Nicki was right she was acting out of character.

The day rolled on pleasantly until the biting cold of the evening weather forced them back indoors. Safaree was in shock about the fact that Nicki hadn't fallen asleep yet. Getting her alone in their bathroom he shut and locked the door behind him.

"Oh? So now you're following me to the bathroom?" She was just drying her hands as he moved closer to her, securing both of his hands on her hips.

"What, I'm not allowed to have you to myself for a lil' bit?" He smiled into her neck as he kissed and nipped at her skin starting something he definitely intended to finish, to which she happily complied.
Thankfully all the commotion downstairs drowned out her moans as he had her sat on the sink whilst he devoured her.

***

After kissing her deeply he wiped his mouth and let her down so she could put her panties back on.

"I'm never talkin' to you again if anyone heard us Safaree." Raising his brows at her smirking he tapped her on the ass as they left the bathroom. Nobody had heard them, at least that's what they thought. Sat in the bedroom next to theirs Lauren had heard everything as she fought to hold the tears back. She shook her head angrily and tried to force the tears away and when she finally succeeded she checked herself over before joining everyone else downstairs again.

*Hope this was alrightish, I was gonna do HIA tonight too and I already typed a bit but I can only post in between revision hours so I might post it tomorrow if I get chance :) Thanks for all the comments on chapter 15 ^___^*

15. Diagnosis - Part One

*Okay I officially do not like this chapter after writing it FOUR times! Yes that's right I wrote it four times and got angry before posting it as it is >:( Moving right aloooong, hope this is ok for everyone It's a little rushed and short and Im sorry but I'll give myself more time for the next one I promise it will be better!!*

After he watched them leave he felt the anger consume him. How the hell was Drake about to text Nicki asking her to meet up with him? After everything he'd done to her, everything he was still doing to her. He'd been woken multiple times last night with her crying out in her sleep but he would just pull her trembling body to him and hold her until she drifted off again. He didn't know what else to do. Grabbing his keys and phone he headed out. He needed some time to forget all his troubles and be with his friends too just like Nicki was right now.

***

Their car ride was awkwardly quiet as Nicki just looked at her nails and Candi played on her phone in the back whilst Lauren kept her face on scowl as she drove them. That was another thing, Nicki wanted a driver to take them in one of the cars but Lauren deemed that idea ridiculous if she wanted to keep a low profile. Especially since they'd gone against Safaree's orders of taking some form of security with them.

"I ain't sittin in the back on the way home, just sayin'." Feeling her temper flare Lauren tried to keep a lid on it but when Nicki responded equally as childishly as Candi she felt as though she was about to flip if another word left either one of their mouths.

"I get motion sickness Candi, fuck outta here wantin' the fat pregnant lady to sit in the back and be throwin' her goddamn intestines up!" Candi rolled her eyes and looked out of the window as Lauren exhaled shakily and ran her hands over her face. They were stuck in traffic, sat silently.

"Stop it."

What?" Nicki looked at Lauren confusedly.

"Your foot. Stop tappin' it like that. It's annoyin' as fuck." Looking down she realised that she'd been absent mindedly tapping her foot on the side of the car door. Stopping immediately she widened her eyes and looked out of the window too after sighing. This horrible feeling she had wouldn't go away, it was heavy on her mind as she felt her hands trembling. They reached the mall in silence and honestly the only one who was completely unaffected by Lauren's mood was Candi. Who carried on acting as normal as they strolled in. Nicki kept her shades on as she felt her heart thumping, she had no idea why she was freaking out so much about leaving the house but she'd been having eerie feelings. She figured it was probably nothing or if anything just her acting strange because she was pregnant. Luckily nobody knew she was carrying, it made her more difficult to identify.

"Why'd you bring me here?" She huffed as they walked around.

"Oh my God, Nicki if you really don't wanna be here then just go wait in the fuckin' car!" Angrily looking through her bag Lauren searched for the keys.

"By myself?" She laughed dryly."Yeah, like that's gon' happen!" As Candi roamed off after rolling her eyes at a snappy Lauren Nicki stood by her aggravated friend. "The fuck is wrong with you today?"

"Nothin'." Pulling her purse over her shoulder some more she looked at Nicki's face which showed that she knew she was lying. "Really, it's nothin'. Now can we please get on with this, get what you need and get you home before SB thinks we got yo' ass kidnapped or somethin'?"

"Ion believe you but I'll figure it out. Right now though, I want a smoothie so let's go." She shook her head and followed behind Nicki as they caught up with Candi again.

They'd been walking around aimlessly for ages after getting smoothies and amongst a few giggles Nicki still couldn't shake that weird feeling. On top of that all the walking had made her feel tired and achy.

"Can we please sit down?" Lauren looked back at her fed up friend and agreed as she watched her trying to stretch her back out. She'd been really quiet actually, and honestly she had expected more whining to have occurred.

"Yeah, you wanna go eat?"

"Oh my God! Yes!"

"Shit, you act like you've never been fed before!" Candi cackled as they headed over to the food court, luckily it wasn't very busy.

"I'm eating for three." She looked her dead in the eye as they walked and held up three fingers just to make her point clear.

"Whatever. Where d'you wanna eat?"

"Somewhere away from everyone." She scanned her eyes across her surroundings and jumped slightly when a store worker nearby accidentally knocked off a shelf of items.

"Well, we're in a food court so, there are people everywhere and why you actin' mad jumpy and shit?" Throwing her empty smoothie cup into the trash Lauren fixed her eyes on Nicki waiting for an answer.

"I'm not."

"Uhm, yes you are!"

"Whilst you two argue 'bout that I'm gon' get me some food." Walking off ahead she left Nicki and Lauren to sit down. They were both moody and quite frankly pulling her into a depressive state too. Sitting in silence Lauren kept her focus on Nicki as she kept checking her phone and bouncing her knee.

"Aight, what is up with you?" Bringing her head up she stayed still.

"Me? I could ask you the same freakin' question! You been actin' so bitchy all day! Anyone would think you're the one that was fucking pregnant!" She had no idea where that outburst came from and immediately regretted opening her mouth. After staying silent almost all day she felt drained, tired and now after her angry explosion she felt as though she was on the verge of tears. This was the part of pregnancy that she hated, for no reason she felt like she hated everyone around her and they were purposely trying to annoy her. She loved her friends but was in no mood to be in their company right now.

"Wow, I didn't realise we couldn't have our own problems to deal with, I'm sorry." She placed her hand  on her chest as she spoke sarcastically.

"Lauren-"

"No, don't talk to me. Ion wanna hear your mouth right now." Rubbing her temples she took herself some painkillers out and took them with her water. She gave Nicki a look again.

"Now what?"

"Stop bouncing your leg like that, you look like a nervous wreck." She hadn't realised what she was doing as she stopped her limb from moving. Suddenly feeling really warm she pulled at the scarf that was around her neck as she fanned herself.

"I don't feel right." Lauren looked up momentarily as she heard her trembling voice.

"You kay Nic?" She let her eyes wander over her shaky hands and flushed face. "Nicki?" She didn't answer as she stood up swiftly, she had no idea what was happening as she tried to breathe.

"No, no I feel like I'm gonna pass out." She squeezed her eyes shut and used the table to steady herself as Lauren stood up too, looking more and more concerned by the second by her friend's strange behaviour.

"Is it the babies?"

"Ion know." She paused and looked at Lauren pleadingly. "Please can we just go?" Grabbing at her chest she tried to steady her breathing but the more she tried the worse it got and people were starting to stare. As her shaking became more visible Lauren felt her stomach drop, this could be serious.

"Shit Nicki, you're really scarin' me! I'm callin' an ambulance!" she did as she said she would and dialled as Candi neared them with her McDonald's bag in her hand.

"Are you okay ma'am?" An older man asked worriedly seeing a pregnant woman in such a distressed state, she'd sat back down again and was still trying to stop herself from breathing so fast and deep.

"Oh my God, what's happening?" Candi rushed over to the seat next to Nicki and held her hand as the man pulled the brown bag from her grasp and emptied the contents.

"Here, breathe into this, I think you're hyperventilating." As Lauren spoke on the phone Candi helped Nicki hold the bag to her face and the stranger coached her through her breathing, hoping it would have the desired outcome. They watched Nicki as she shut her eyes, allowing the tears that were forming to fall down her face as she struggled to control the rapid rising and falling of her chest.

***

Sitting with the Vaks he'd been more reserved than usual, stuck in his thoughts about the whole Nicki and Drake situation. What if he hadn't deleted the text? Would she have agreed to see him? He answered his own question as he shook his head, she wouldn't do that. Not after the way he treated her, no way. Popping another chip into his mouth he saw Rex staring at him.

"You aight?"

"Yeah, I'm good. Sleepless nights that's all." He re-adjusted his hat and stood up. "Well, Imma make a move now I was gon' take Nicki out to eat but I have a feelin' she ain't gonna want to leave the damn house." As he was about to head out his phone vibrated in his hand, looking down he saw it was Lauren. He'd missed three calls from her and as he opened her text he didn't hesitate in leaving immediately.

Pulling up to the hospital he parked way out of the lines and darted straight to the front desk. After asking quite rudely the lady pointed him in the right direction. Exiting the elevator he saw Candi and Lauren sat outside looking worried.

"What's happened? Is she ok?" He was talking a mile a minute as Lauren stood to talk.

"We don't know yet, the doctor-" Before she could go on she was interrupted by the man himself.

"Safaree?"

"Yeah thas me, is she ok? Can we see her?"

"Yes, yes just a moment. I wanna explain some things first and then you can go see her. She's been askin' for you." He smiled which reassured them that there was no bad news.

"Well what's wrong with her?" Candi crossed her arms across herself nervously as the doctor moved his eyes across the three of them.

"Nicki appears to have suffered an anxiety attack, which accounts for the hyperventilation, trembling, heart palpitations and all the rest."

"An anxiety attack? I didn't even know she was suffering from anxiety!" Lauren cupped her hand over her mouth feeling awful for having made Nicki leave the house when she didn't want to. Obviously it was being out in the mall that had set her off.

"A lot of people don't until the first attack, but with Nicki it could be a number of things. I'll talk about that later with you alone Mr Samuels. I'll let you go see her now, she's fine. A little tired but she and the babies are fine." He flashed them a smile and patted Safaree reassuringly before going around them and  heading toward his next patient.

As they entered her room they saw her laying sleepily on her side. He was right, she looked exhausted.

"Hey, how are you feelin'?" Each taking a seat Lauren asked guiltily as she looked over her.

"Sleepy." She pulled her eyes away from Lauren as Safaree walked over to kiss her. They both let him take the seat closest.

"I'm so sorry for makin' you go out. I had no idea, why didn't you tell me?" He held her hand supportively as he sat down.

"Honestly? I didn't know either I just felt weird." She sighed quietly before feeling herself dropping to sleep. He stayed there, holding her hand until she properly asleep again. Candi and Lauren left at around 7pm and Safaree was sat wondering why they were still in the hospital, surely if they were fine then the could leave. Just as he was about to stand up he heard the door open as the doctor walked back in.

* I hope this was alrightish, excuse any medical errors, I am no doctor although I do have experience with Social Anxiety Disorder since I suffer from it so some of it should be similar! Lmao, thx for all ur comments on the previous chapter I cried at how mad you all were with the cliffhanger XD My next chap will be less rushed and more mentally planned!*